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2011-09-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

Damn super fuck.

Thomas Jovian

2011-09-05T09:29:00.001+08:00

Where's the cohesiveness?

Where's the cooperation?

Where's the extra mile?

Where's the passion?

I hate it when it's a lot of talk with no action.

Thomas Jovian

2011-08-31T19:15:00.002+08:00

Damn the back pain.

Went to see the Dr today.

Given some painkillers. Apparently also given a higher level painkiller.

BUT IT'S NOT WORKING!!!

Got some bubble tea to make myself happy.

But it didn't really taste as nice as the previous one I got.

Seriously, the meds made me sleepy. ONLY.

The pain is still quite annoying.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK TOMORROW.

I'll update again another day.

Thomas Jovian

2011-08-29T19:05:00.003+08:00

Crazy Monday.

Damn crazy Monday.

We were so busy, I could only breathe during lunchtime.

I can finally fly! Really fly from one room to another.

Give me 2 seconds and I'll be there.

That should go into my resume. Hehehe.

I would have wanted to head out for lunch, but it's still better to save money. Especially now I'll be going back to school next year.

Jane & I were like 2 hungry ghosts who just got released. Just befitting, now that the ACTUAL gates have been closed. Hehehe

First time I saw her eating at like SUPERFAST SPEED!

Quite scary, actually...

Really, time passes by too fast when you're resting, and literally moves too slowly when you're at work.

Can't it be the complete opposite?

Can't wait for Tuesday to come!

Just want to rest for one more day.

JUST. ONE. MORE. DAY.

Can't we just have another half day for Monday.

Having a full day off on a working half day is super demoralising.

50% of Singapore's population is probably enjoying a good Monday off, before another Tuesday public holiday.

DAMNIT!!!

Well, don't complain.

Time to rest.

Feel like heading out, but yet I feel homely as well.

Let's have a party at home. =D

Thomas Jovian

2011-08-28T22:55:00.007+08:00

My entire body is aching like every single muscle is going to rip apart.

Nothing dirty.

Anyway, my mom decided to head down to Ngee Ann City today to get some mooncakes from Shangri-la Hotel. Ngee Ann City always has this mooncake expo sort of thing going on every year.

There's not much worry about not being able to find most of the major hotel names, and even a few new emerging bakeries & eateries showcasing their mooncakes.

"EEEEE, the Shangri-la mooncake tastes different from the one I had that day from the teacher!"

Like seriously, I don't know how the Shangri-la mooncake tasted like. But since she said that it didn't taste like the one she had, as well as the packaging not looking similar, we decided to get mooncakes from another retailer.

And off we went, in search for the next personal favourite mooncake.

And we've managed to qualify Goodwood Park Hotel's mooncakes.

They're pretty decent, with a not-so-sweet lotus paste & good smooth texture.

We decided to get the ones from Goodwood Park after trying out the mooncakes from other retailers (my mom's a pretty picky eater. Well, so am I, but definitely less picky than she is).

Dinner at F.I.S.H. at Somerset 313. My mom didn't really like Fish & Co, though I don't really remember why she doesn't like them. So I was thankful she liked F.I.S.H., knowing that it's a sister branch from Fish & Co.

One thing I like about F.I.S.H. is their salad bar. It's a salad buffet! I used that to kind of buy my mom over to have dinner at F.I.S.H. (hey, it worked!), and I have to say, she liked it. Though not head over heels, but she doesn't mind coming back again.

She likes it!

We really made good use of the complimentary salad buffet that comes with ordering a main dish.

I just don't remember how many times we ~~raped~~ attacked the salad bar.

It's salad! It's damn healthy!

Until you start using the sauces.

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We went window shopping after getting mooncakes, and we sort of indulged in a bit of high-class experience as well. I stepped into a Burberry, Mont Blanc & Bally store for the first time!

Felt damn ATAS!

WOOT!

But damnit, looking at the price tag of S$500 for an Ermenegildo Zegna long wallet made my pocket disappear.

One day... ONE DAY, I SHALL OWN A BALLY/ERMENEGILDO ZEGNA/MONT BLANC/PRADA* (delete where appropriate) WALLET!

Got myself another new ring.

Now I have 3 rings in my collection.

MY DAMN MISERABLY PUNY COLLECTION.

Settled for a Fossil long wallet first.

Looks nice, and so was the service staff who served me.

DAMN CUTE!!! I JUST WANT TO SQUEEZE HIS CHEEKS!!!

I got free pencils too!!!

Ay, don't see this long wallet no up ah.

Damn soft leather.

I wanted to literally bend and twist it at the Fossil store. LIKE LITERALLY.

Kept my itchy hands away.

See the superduperextra cute pencils?

They have their own messages too!

Super don't feel like using them at all.

Their pencil sharpener is quite heavy. Don't know why they need to have a heavier-than-usual sharpener...

And kept in a very PWEETY brown Fossil pouch, with a complimentary Fossil catalogue.

Just saw a couple of watches that really looked nice!

Time to save money! AND BURN SOME POCKET HOLES!

I seriously can't wait to eat the mooncakes.

I should get some snowskin ones for myself. Since my mom doesn't like them (she thinks they're not mooncake-like enough).

MOONCAKESMOONCAKESMOONCAKESMOONCAKES!!!

OM NOM NOM NOM NOM!!!

Thomas Jovian

2011-08-20T08:47:00.002+08:00

Damn farky.

Oh, and I'll have to thank you for literally blowing up what was left of my self-esteem in front of them.

Oh. Did I say thank you?

Yeah, I'm probably cussing you right now in my mind. But well, can't do that in front of you can I. What can I do, only a silent vendetta.

Don't need to know if I'm alright or not.

If you know what's going on, and I don't feel like talking about it, shut up.

Just.

Thomas Jovian

2011-08-06T16:20:00.001+08:00

I think my nose doesn't like me.

It likes to get congested and blocked for no reason.

I HATE IT.

Thomas Jovian

2011-07-24T13:16:00.003+08:00

Greetings from my workplace on a Sunday afternoon!!!

Changing to a new system. Hope it'll work out fine tomorrow.

Oh gosh...

Thomas Jovian

2011-07-22T12:03:00.001+08:00

The toilet denied my physical existence.

I only existed after taking my leak.

I was peeing in the dark.

Thomas Jovian

2011-06-23T11:10:00.002+08:00

Three more days.

I'm getting old.

Just one more year before I really become a quarter of a century years old.

Just thinking about it gives me the shivers.

Oh, and I got my first birthday present of the year from my BESTEST!

LOVE IT!

Thomas Jovian

2011-06-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

Life just sucks. Doesn't it?

Thomas Jovian

2011-06-15T13:33:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine just got married. So happy for him. =)

A few other friends of mine got married too. So happy for them.

A few more friends of mine are getting married soon. So happy for them.

I guess for myself, being single will be the best thing that ever happened to me.

I know there will be that very empty void in my heart, especially ever since I got my heart broken again a few months back. Not everyone will be able to find a life partner, and not everyone will be able to survive being single.

Though it was a really good time of falling in love (which I really hope it is/was), enjoying each other's company, seeing each other's true colours.

I'll probably never find that person in my life. Maybe not in this lifetime, provided I'll return again the next lifetime. Whether gay or not.

=)

It's sometimes quite interesting to see friends getting into relationships, one after another, after another, after another. And in the end, it all ends after a few months, or a year or two.

But they never get tired of falling in love. It's like they've got a neverending supply of love to give out. I think it's scary. Really scary.

I've got too much of that dream guy in my head, can't possibly have such a guy in this world. They're all taken up. I've got too much of that dream life in my head, can't possibly have such a good life in this world.

Well, it is nicer being friends. It's better that way.

=)

Thomas Jovian

2011-06-04T08:17:00.003+08:00

It's already June, and it's only a few more months before I decide my academic future.

As you, and everyone else knows, I'm currently a Diploma in Nursing graduate. I can easily apply for a degree programme with SIM GE for the Bachelor of Nursing (Post-registration) programme, due to start next year February.

BUT... there's a problem.

I've been plagued countless times by the need to stay prim and proper with near-zero deviation. Okay, layman's language - PROFESSIONAL IMAGE.

I seriously don't understand the serious need to be SO neat and tidy as an image. I'm not saying that we can turn up for work with hair literall looking like you've battled Hurricane Katrina, clothes so crumpled ants could call it the new Himalayan mountain range... well, you get my drift.

It's those small little things that we do, like the occasional colouring of hair, or styling of hair. I mean, is there a rule saying that the hair must not be styled to a certain messiness, or to a certain style? Yes, colouring of hair should not be done to a point where the colour is too obvious or just plain ridiculous. But there's this thing called freedom and trust. I think too many bosses in Singapore are overly concerned about how their employees look. They end up losing the trust between employees and employers.

If you want your employees to enjoy working at their workplace, let them feel like they are part of it. Too much professionalism erodes the joys of working; and in return destroys one's love and passion for the profession.

I'm a person who's very interested in fine arts and design. I also have a passion for nursing. Though it's not really reflected in my academics, I tend to do better in practical. I'm a very people person, not a theoretical person.

So for me, I tend to mix a little bit here and there, from accessories, to my hair. Of course, that didn't really do well among my bosses.

Typical me, I challenged them.

If you were me, will you also not question why image is so important for a person working in the healthcare sector? Isn't a person working in the healthcare decided by his or her professional performance, and not professional image? Shouldn't professional performance take utmost importance?

You can have the neatest and tidiest staff working, but his or her performance could be more than lacklustre. Would you rather have that kind of staff, or a staff who's able to perform better and really create an impact or a change?

Just something I've been challenging for a long time, since my school days.

It came to a point where I started losing my passion, my interest, in nursing. It's not because of all the remarks and comments made about my image, but it's just how people can be focused on something minute to a point where I've just decided that if a place is focused so much on unimportant things, I shouldn't be wasting my time there.

You can't force things unto people even when they've already voiced disinterest. It's exactly like shoving food you don't like down your throat.

I hate that.

And because of that, I've decided to reconsider my options.

I've been doing lots of research into what I want to do: Interior design. I think it could do me more good, something that I can really just be myself. And also, I don't see it as something I HAVE to do; it's something I LIKE to do, as well. =)

Many opportunities to volunteer my services too. Hehehe.

I did consider doing music too, but I guess for music it really is much tougher; having to see that as professional players, it takes a lot of skill and talent. I probably only have that much skill, with below average talent.

I may be a person to knows a lot, like a Jack of all trades. But truly I'm a master of none.

I really wonder, why do adults lose track of their lives? Why are they working so hard for? Is it really that important to enjoy the finest things in life? Is it not enough to live a life well lived?

Just food for thought.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-31T20:17:00.002+08:00

I'm doing too much.

Am I expecting too much from myself? Are people asking me to do too many things because I'm young? Do I not know how to delegate?

I guess it's because they're all hit by this bug called lack-of-motivation.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-30T12:35:00.002+08:00

It can get so scary sometimes, I don't dare to step out of my room at all.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-29T11:18:00.002+08:00

It's a Sunday. Too fast to be a weekend.

Blame the Saturday morning work.

Can't Singaporeans fall sick less?

Went to visit my TCM doctor again yesterday afternoon, bandaged my right ring finger this time. Bandaged the left one on Thursday.

Went for training on Friday, JUST GUYS!!! Super messy to the max. Extremely messy. And I just can't seem to focus. Kept landing.

Maybe I was just too focused on wanting to do a good shot and I forgot all about keeping a good airtime too. =(

Damn sad. Too many wasted shots. But oh well, I hope practice will make one a better player; or so most people will say.

Unless he/she is just born not able to excel in sports. Hahaha!!!

Digressed...

Currently listening to Lady Gaga's new album, and it's really club-worthy! I can just play her entire album while gymming. SHIOK!

Speaking of gymming, guilty as charged I am. I paid for my membership and I've not gone back since March. OMG.

But at least I managed to lost that little bit of weight, or excess water content. Is 3kg that much water? From 85kg to a slightly better 81.6kg. Not bad, I shall say.

Let's keep losing weight and aim for at least 75kg by August. If better, 69kg by September! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I just need to sport around more. And seriously get rid of that unsightly pudgy tummy. Stubborn little FAT CELLS.

I guess the road to a new me on underway. I just have to start looking forward to a new me soon. One day.

Eventually.

Thomas Lee

2011-05-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

What's the difference between talentime & dance competition?

One focuses on the talents you have, the other focuses on dance.

Less stress when you only have to choose dance?

Bull.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-24T15:55:00.002+08:00

There seems to be a neverending supply of rumours about doctors and nurses from the public. Let's take a look at a few of them (those that really make me fume, or, just laugh):

MYTH #1 Doctors and nurses can never fall sick

Wow. I'm quite amazed that society at this current day and age can still agree on this myth. Sad to say, and to crush every single one of you who rely on hearsay more than what your doctor tell you, that it's an obvious no.

If doctors and nurses can never fall sick, scientists could have already taken samples of our blood and turned it into vaccines to make everyone sick free. Seriously, where's the logic. Seriously!

MYTH #2 Nurses are just people who wipe patients' backsides

I shan't deny the true fact that yes, we do wipe patients' backsides (especially the elderly & immobile ones) in hospitals. But don't forget; we also administer injections, serve oral medication, serve food, call and notify the doctors of any anomaly/abnormality/whatever you think isn't right, ensure patient safety, ensure patients don't run away (IT HAPPENS), ensure patients don't die (which will be another myth I'm touching on).

We're practically the living examples of livestream surveillance cameras for 12 patients at any one given time. If you have no nurses, who's going to serve medication? If you haev no nurses, who's going to make sure patients don't die?, If you have no nurses, who's going to wipe your parent's backsides?

Think twice before you call us full-time maids in standard uniforms. We can be professional killers too.

MYTH #3 Nurses are the main reason why patients die

I love this statement. It shows just how much biasness there is from society towards the doctors and nurses.

It has never, or in fact, rarely a case where you hear a doctor being sued for causing harm, or involuntarily death to a patient. Because the first thing AND person they'll look for, is the nurse.

Yes, it's true we're the ones caring for the patient. But do we have to remind doctors that "Patient A is allergic to penicillin", or "Patient D is noted to have a significant drop in BP".

What the hell is a chart placed up for? What the hell is a drug allergy stick invented for? It's not for show, nor is it for collecting dust. It's to remind them, the lazy people with lazy eyes. IN YOUR FACE.

Think about this: Is a nurse responsible for the death of a patient due to a foreign body left inside the patient's body after surgery, regardless of countless requests to the doctor to thoroughly search the surgery site before closure, and the doctor simply dismisses the nurse's requests and does closure?

MYTH #4 Nursing is a job for people with no future

It's all about the grades, is it? I wonder; have the doctor you've visited every counseled or educated you about what you can do to prevent this or that?

It's a very small, or in fact, a handful of them who will do education.

As current society is not moving towards an era of primary care, a lot of education is in fact done by nurses. Nurses don't need to have the grades to be able to speak well, or educate patient's on prevention & management.

Like hell, nurses can even further their studies with a Degree, Masters or PhD.

And so you say nurses have no future?

Watch what you say. A nurse could be standing next to you.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-21T09:57:00.002+08:00

Crazy day yesterday. I was so looking forward to tchoukball training, but I didn't perform as well as I thought I could. Or should.

The girls were really tired; training for competition in Italy in July. And it's an everyday thing for them.

I've got this nagging discomfort in my throat. Even though I've more or less recovered a couple of weeks ago from my flu/cold.

Everyone's falling sick. Gosh. Can't the world be like sick-free for a day? Or maybe two?

I was having a very late dinner AND supper at Macs with my friend after training. There was a very disturbing scene I saw while queuing. I saw a maid, with the family. Common sight, yes. She was sitting at a corner while the family was having their food. Disturbing. Appalling.

That was the scene. I've seen it in the news before, but I've never imagined it to be a growing trend among Singapore families. I don't understand why some families have to treat their maids to that extent? What's their purpose? Are they not humans as well? Are they not trying to make a living as well?

In fact I was quite angered and disgusted at the same time that something like this could happen right before my eyes. I could have just walked up to them and just ask them why did they have to ask their maid to sit away from them, like she had a disease.

Of course, knowing I was alone at that time with no backup, I didn't want to end up with a black eye, broken nose, or 5 broken teeth.

I'll just have to suck it up and take in that painful image.

And I thought it was over, until I was walking home. She's being treated worse than a prison inmate. She's almost invisible. The family's having fun amongst themselves, and there she is, trying to catch up with the family.

I don't know if it's common, but I really hope that those families with a maid at home; please appreciate them more. Treat them like a human being, not as a tool.

If you don't want the same treatment, don't do it to anyone else.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-19T11:08:00.002+08:00

Second day through this post holiday work week and I'm already crying for timeout.

And it's like suddenly my body is protesting against me. MY BODY AGAINST ME. Damnit.

Injury on both my ring fingers, just got my right ring finger caught between the window this morning (GODAMNIT). I think I'm going to get my head caught between the life door soon. Very soon.

Thank goodness for the final match this Sunday. I'll need a cast after that; to force myself to rest my injured bodyparts.

But I've been too lazy recently. I had lots of opportunities to gym or swim. The lazy bug just came too quick! I have to run. Run. Run. Run. Run.

Get rid of that putrid looking belly of mine.

If only I didn't have big bones.

Went for a casual swim with my friend yesterday at CSC, probably talking more than we were swimming. But hey, at least we WERE swimming.

Talked about my recent breakup (too much drama already), his love for chemistry. We were in the pool.

I decided to take a break and rest my tired soul, probably do a massive overhaul on my body. In fact, I think it's going to do really well for me. Hehe.

I've got braces coming up at the end of the year (finally, no more misplace teeth & awkward sideframes), MORE GYM (please work on that, you lazy piece of shit), and probably clean skin (like minues the breakouts anywhere and everywhere).

Sounds physical. Yes it is. Very physical. That's just a glimpse of how much I raelly want to do to make myself a better person. At least, physically.

Need to start re-setting my goals; think of new ones, revise my old ones.

I'm on a plan. A personal plan. =)

*It's time to love yourself*

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-17T21:22:00.002+08:00

It's been too long since I last updated my blog. So much has been happening for the past 3 months, and honestly, I've never realised that it's been really that long.

February was the month of love, well, at least for the rest of the world. Where the very small group of us ended breaking up.

I was a very unfortunate one. The last time I broke up during February was during my last relationship in secondary school. One week before Valentine's Day.

This time, this last relationship I had, we broke up just a few days before Valentine's Day. What a way to have a nice 2011. After 1 year and 2 months. My longest relationship to date.

Well, yes. Congratulations to you, you broke my record.

It's been really hard for me to forget him. I really loved him, someone I thought I could really work it out with for the years to come. And in the end, it all came to an abrupt end.

At least I had my gut feeling to be thankful for. I found out about it when I realised he wasn't messaging me as usual, especially during a public holiday. And he's been hanging out a lot with a friend he'd barely knew. His sudden message and only one jam packed with what happened from morning till night, just made me realise, I've been cheated.

I could still remember the night we met for the last time, when he told me:

"I fell in love with him, because he gave out this really warm & loving feeling. Something that I didn't have from you."

It burned me. Burned my heart. It took everything out of me.

I really felt like dying. Or actually, to say, I died. That night.

I guess my love wasn't warm at all. Coldhearted love? I guess my way of showing love was different. Too different.

The love I showed was myself, the love I showed was putting in my trust, the love I showed was allowing this relationship to be a mature relationship.

He didn't like it. He wanted the physical love. I couldn't do. Not at all.

The next few weeks were painful. Really painful.

I was literally hiding my pain behind that smile. I was dying, crying, screaming. I was literally thinking of a way to dig myself out of that misery. I was always on the verge of crying. I just wish I could tell my bosses that I needed time off to recover from the shock of breaking up. But I knew I couldn't.

I had no choice; I had to keep myself busy with so many other things to forget about him.

I couldn't forget. He was always on my mind. I just kept telling myself, maybe it was just a prank. April's Fool was around the corner. Maybe he was keeping something from me. Maybe he had a masterplan.

I was wrong. We've really ended. For good. I had to let go of him.

It took me so long, 2 months in fact, to start letting go. To forget him. I still loved him, I still couldn't bear to take him out of my life.

3 months after, and here I am, still thinking of him. Missing him.

I will never forget him. He'll always be around. Till the day I die.

Thomas Jovian

2011-05-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

I don't feel good today.

Damn you hiccup.

At least on the bright side; time to welcome another new hairdo.

Hopefully welcoming too.

Thomas Jovian

2011-04-08T14:58:00.003+08:00

Cry
Until the sadness goes away
Cry
Until the pain just slips away
Cry
Until the hating hides away
Cry
Until the love just fades away

Thomas Jovian

2011-02-23T11:28:00.002+08:00

So much has happened recently.

So much so, I thought I was going insane. Literally.

Of course, proving my reputed claim that "nothing can kill me", it is very much true that nothing can kill me. But just really debilitate me.

I'll probably write more when I have the time. Now's the time for me to get busy.

More work. Yes, more work.

Thomas Jovian

2011-01-24T10:41:00.003+08:00

Caught some balls yesterday, on a very slippery court.

Wasn't my best game. DAMNIT.

So difficult to get a community centre court; nicer, smooth but not slippery, cooling. Isn't it nicer?

Whoever's got good deals for that, let me know!

Anyway, these few weeks have been really hectic, if not, crazy. Patients have been coming in like nobody's business. It's like as though we're going to be seeing the entire Bukit Batok, Bukit Gombak & Hillview population. Not to forget, a few Choa Chu Kang citizens as well.

Is it the flu bug? Don't think so. It's the Singaporean's weak immune system. True? After I got my flu jab, I don't think I've gotten down with the flu since then, November. It's been 2 flu seasons, and I'm not hit with flu yet.

Otherwise, if it's not the flu bug, it's the chronic issues like backache, eye pain, headache, giddiness, and they can actually come after resisting for like more than one to three months. And they actually expect the nurses to assess and qualify them as a priority case.

Patients. Taking it to a whole new level.

Oh, and to those who think they know it all, screw you.

Thomas Jovian

2011-01-20T14:23:00.001+08:00

Everyone has their fair share of coming out on the wrong side of the bed.

I came out from the wrong angle of the bed.

It sucks. Big time.

Thomas Jovian

2011-01-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

IT'S A WAR OUT THERE!!!

IT'S A WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thomas Jovian

2011-01-07T10:58:00.002+08:00

I'm a moody bitch.

So what?

Why do we have to conform to so much rules and "do's & don'ts"?

So much for trying not to lead a double life.

Bloody fucks.

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-27T14:43:00.001+08:00

I'M GETTING A HAIRCUT TODAY!!! AND ENROLLING FOR DRIVING THEORY!!!

LIKE FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll post my BEFORE and AFTER shots later.

=D

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-14T10:42:00.001+08:00

Happy very belated 5th birthday blog.

=DD

Gosh, I need to remind myself to celebrate my blog's birthday.

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-14T08:22:00.002+08:00

It's been a couple of days since I last returned from Taiwan on Saturday night (midnight, to be exact), and it wasn't a very nice transition period.

From the cold weather to the humid and warm weather. From sleep-inducing hotel room to bone-breaking bedroom. From cheap street stall food to money-for-life food.

Well, it actually isn't such an exaggeration anyway. Just displeased that my one-week Taiwan trip has come to an end. =(

If only I could have like a month for holidays, wouldn't that be heaven? I guess it'll be hell too; where will I get the money to spend for the entire month? DAMN.

The last 2 days in Taiwan were really slack. We had to, we were packing our luggages, or, jampacking our luggages. My luggage, to say. Lunch wasn't nice. It was bad. REALLY BAD. REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD. I so wish I snapped a few pictures of the menu, but I didn't. Did you know that spaghetti was spelled as spagteei or something like that in Taiwan? Well, not all places. Some.

And the cafe that we had lunch in Yuanshan during the flora expo? HILARIOUS!!! It was a literal translation from Mandarin to English!!! Oh gosh, and I thought I'd never see such things in Taiwan.

XD

We had spare cash to spend, so we started hunting for things to buy back for friends or colleagues, and even after reminding myself to do up a list of people to buy stuff for, I could still forget till the day I returned to Singapore. How nice, isn't it. I think it's signalling me to get the gifts from Daiso. Their Daiso in Taiwan is like 2 or 3 storeys high. Scary... But I didn't go. GODAMMIT!!!

By the end of the last day, we still had like over NT$3000, and that was like "WOW!!!". We managed to scrimp (well, not really scrimp) and save till we had an excess at the end of the trip. At least it's a good thing, because I spammed it on alcohol at the Taoyuan International Airport duty free shops. NT$1500 in total. We still have NT$1500 left!!!

Too bad, the duty free shops did not have the fragrance that I was looking for. Nevermind, I shall get the fragrance at the flagship store itself. Irritating.

And now, I shall start preparing for maybe, a March trip, my confirmed June birthday chalet, June trip & October trip.

BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'M GOING BACK TO TAIWAN!!!

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-10T20:49:00.002+08:00

I'm back with Taiwan updates!!!

It was the most exhaustive day on Wednesday for the both of us; we went hiking on Yangmingshan.

YES!!! YANGMINGSHAN!!! HIKING!!!

Well, not exactly hikinghiking, but walking-turned-into-hiking. =D

The Yangmingshan map was a bit confusing, and adding on to that, my Mandarin is not the very best of all in my family...

We spent about half an hour walking on the mountain trek trail, before realising that we've only traveled like half of 600 meters to the Yangmingshan tourist information centre.

THEN, we returned to the bus terminal and found out that we could have taken this park shuttle service around the park, which in fact, covers over 5 mountains.

I felt dumb. VERY DUMB.

Of course, we were like literally exhausted, so we just paid for the shuttle and decided to stay throughout the entire bus trip; we could choose to stop at any other tourist information centre, but exhausted and already evening time, we chose to stay in the bus.

The view was still beautiful, really beautiful, but had we gone there in the morning, it would have been an entirely differently story. =)

We forced ourselves to travel to the southern part of Taipei, from the north; Longshan Temple.

Don't get me wrong, we didn't go to the temple. It was where one of the night markets were; Huaxi Night Market.

BUT, it was probably one of the most boring night markets. REALLY. BORING.

We were like there for just a while, until my camera battery died on me after taking one last picture of the Longshan Temple. Heh.

I wish we had slightly more time for Yangmingshan. Next time then. =))

NOW!!! YESTERDAY!!!

SO FUN IT WAS YESTERDAY!!! WE WENT TO THE 2010 TAIPEI INTERNATIONAL FLORA EXPOSITION!!!

Flowers were so so so so so pretty and grand!!! And I saw my favourite flower too; the tiger lily!!!

If only I received white tiger lilies for my birthday or for our anniversary. So sweet right... =))

I didn't even realise just how many pictures I took yesterday, until we returned to the hotel room.

But, that wasn't before we headed down to Houshanpi to visit the Raohe Street Night Market.

Seriously!!! Wufenpu was there, and there were so much clothes there, I almost died from happiness!!!

But too bad, had to save money. But it's still better than nothing. I just gave myself a visual orgasm. Heh.

Raohe Street Night Market was okay. I think I still prefer Shilin Night Market for food. AND Wufenpu for clothes. And Ximending for shopping!!!

=D

I want to return to Taiwan to shop!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!!

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-07T22:34:00.004+08:00

BLOODY FARK, I JUST LOST MY ENTIRE BLOG ENTRY.

Now that it's gone, I shall just keep it simple (I've pretty much lost my mood to blog already).

It was boring today, just shopping malls, street shopping & food district, all in Zhonghua Fuxing district. Street shopping & food district was better. Shopping malls are pretty boring.

Hint: EXPENSIVE.

Then to Shilin night market. I was nearly tempted to get another pair of shoes; it was just too pretty to look at!!! and it was at a killer price. NT$1000!!! It was like over NT$2000 in Ximending!!!

I think now I'm regretting. But then again I told myself that it's going to be alright, because I've promised myself I'll be returning to Taipei next year, probably in March. =DD

I need to get clothes. And I'll not be doing it during the winter period; can't wear those winter clothes in Singapore ever, can you? And summer's a little bit TOO hot, you know. So I guess March is the bestest period for shopping. It's SPRING, and clothes are generally nicer then too, or autumn. =))

Shilin night market, yes, it was alright, I mean, the food was nice and stuff, but the things sold there, are really just like what you'll see at the local pasar malam in Singapore. And really, only the clothes there from the Taiwanese labels or talents are decent enough for purchase. And I tell you, it is really slightly cheaper than what you see in Ximending. Don't miss out on Shilin night market if you're into, you guessed it, Taiwanese talents or labels, and Taiwanese street food.

=D

Tomorrow will be another day; but with a really much more relaxed itinerary. Let's see: Yuanshan for the Taiwan Floral Exhibition, then to Yangmingshan National Park for a mountain trip & maybe hot springs (Heh!), then down to Longshan Temple for another night market; the Huaxi night market!!!

Not such a bad itinerary right.

Very relaxed already hor.

=DD

I want to go drinking at Little Bear Village; without my mom. ARGH.

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

Day two in Taiwan!!! They open shops pretty late you know. We almost died of boredom while actually waiting for the shops to open.

Can you imagine, having breakfast at 8am in the morning, then having to wait till about 1130am for shops and diners to open. We had SO MUCH time to kill, we watched TV to kill time. And of course, since I wasn't really that hungry, I told my mom to wait till about 1pm to head out for lunch. She was already hungry by 12pm. She eats tons, but I think I eat MORE. =PP

After lunch, 3pm, I think. And it was SHOPPING ALL THE WAY!!!

I tell you, there were so many shops in Ximending, I didn't know where to start or stop. Gosh. And I didn't know I've spent so much, I think like over $200 on clothes! But it wasn't much, couldn't bear to drop by the cheaper shops, went to the slightly more high-class shops, but not the ones in the shopping malls; they are a killer. And anyway, they're just brands that we have back in Singapore as well. So homegrown Taiwan talents are better, I'd rather spend that little bit more for nice Taiwanese talent. =))

Man, if only I had like $2000 to spend. That'll be like HEAVEN!!! But I think with that amount of money, it wouldn't even sustain me for a week of shopping. Dang...

I guess next year, I'll be back in Taiwan for shopping again!!!

Dinner, was just funny, cute and nice!!! I'm sure you have heard of the modern toilet cafe in Taiwan. Yes, that's the cafe we went to for dinner. Go to my Facebook for pictures; imagine eating off toilet bowls and urinals. Sounds kind of gross, but in fact it's not. It's really cute and a really fantastic concept. =)) I bought a urinal!!! Who wants to drink from a urinal? =P

Oh, and by the way, I love the hotel I'm staying in, because, it's like just 2 streets away from their famed Little Bear Village. I LOVE IT THERE!!! It's like our very own Tanjong Pagar & Chinatown for the queers! Bars, clubs, boutiques, cafe; I can't wait to go there with him.

=)))

And it's a good day today; we reached the hotel room at around 9+++pm and will be talking to my sister and brother-in-law really soon.

Time for supper!!! In a while, not now. Still recovering from toilet dinner and toilet water.

=P

Thomas Jovian

2010-12-05T21:13:00.004+08:00

TAIWAN!!!

It's my very first time here and I'm here with my mom. And we're sleeping in the same bed.

Oh, and the hotel staff actually gave free condoms. In the room. How nice.

You know, when you book a flight and it's like, in the morning, MAKE SURE you reach the airport like at least 3 hours before the actual flight. I was so afraid that we're going to miss our flight.

Imagine LAST CALL at 620am, and I was still having breakfast with my family. Then rushing to the departure hall and to the gate like nobody's business. Not fun.

AT ALL.

It was really fun though, the flight was full of beautiful clouds and a very annoying little girl kicking the back of my plane seat throughout the entire 4-hour trip. On my butt.

DAMN IRRITATING.

Reaching Taiwan was another thing. We read that the temperature in Taiwan can go to as low as 8 degrees. We bought the windbreaker, long johns, and guess what, 25 degrees in the day, and 21 degrees at night.

BLARDY HELL!!! I wasted like extra extra space in my luggage for the bulky windbreaker. That space could have gone to the clothes I was going to shop and buy in Taiwan. Frustrating...

Well, at least the hotel room was good, really value for money. And it's in Ximending. SO MUCH CLOTHES TO LOOK AT!!! AND IT'S FOR GUYS!!!

I'm in paradise. Literally. I think I'm going to prepare for excess baggage of like over 20kg, just for clothes.

Today wasn't really much for my mom and myself. We were exploring the streets of Ximending, and really came across lots of food. We spent loads on food already. LOTS, REALLY LOTS.

But the weather at least was nice, not too hot, not too cold. Just feel really cheesed out thinking about the miserable windbreaker.

Tomorrow's going to be an EVEN better day. Going to be better day by day. Shopping the entire day tomorrow, at Ximending!!! Probably going to try Taipei 101 and/or Yangming Shan on Wednesday or Thursday. Damn, there's still Shilin night market and other places to shop. And eat. So much to do, so little time.

Gosh, just give me 2 weeks leave and I'll be glad to stay in Taiwan for the entire 2 weeks! WOOHOO!!!

Oh, and my mom was very much pleasantly surprised that nightfall came way before 630pm. She did not believe me and in fact, asked a passerby. How hilarious. =))

Well, now I'll be waiting for my sister to come online at 1030pm, and hopefully the both of us (my mom and myself) will not collapse and KO through the night.

COME ONLINE FASTERLY!!!

Thomas Jovian

2010-11-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

I had a weird feeling, and it was about a friend of mine, Nicholas.

I'm sure those who studied in the same secondary school as me knew who Nicholas was.

I can still remember those days, back when we were still studying, there he was, a cute, bubbly, ALWAYS smiling yong chap who never failed to make anyone smile or laugh.

But sadly enough, he had to go too soon. He got involved in a really unfortunate accident and left this world in July last year. 7th July 2009, to be exact.

I heard about the news when I was at home, and all my friends were posting messages of "Rest in peace Nicky" or "We'll miss you". It didn't even strike my mind.

That was only until my friend messaged me and asked whether I knew anything, that was when, it struck me.

I was just, let's say, dumbfounded. I was just shocked at the fact that a friend of mine has just passed on. And he was just my age. A very tender 22.

And of course, being close friends with him, a few friends and myself got together and attending his wake, it was really very much a feeling of melancholy, a very bittersweet emotion inside of me; we were all catching up with each other on lost time, and at the same time, just expressing grief for a friend.

I didn't know my fellow friends in camp were his coursemate in OCS. SURPRISE, SURPRISE. =)

We all attended his sending off, together with my friends, and once the coffin was closed... I cried.

It was a very painful experience for me. I mean, family & close relatives are one thing, but friends, that's a very different story.

The entire trip to the crematorium was just subdued with sadness. You could just literally feel it once you stepped into the bus.

His cousin's eulogy; it was just so honest, so simple. It literally broke my heart to see someone like him pass on at such a young age.

His final journey towards the crematorium; I shall say, it was what made practically every single person, layman, soldier, family, break apart. I can never forget just how hard I cried for him. I can still remember it.

And now, over a year has gone since his passing, and everytime I think about him, I miss him; I'll miss bumping into him and his girlfriend at the bus stop right in front of my block, I'll miss his smile and laughter if there ever were a class gathering. Everyone will miss him. And it just makes my eyes water everytime.

You're being remembered, Nicky. =)

Thomas Jovian

2010-11-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

Jag Vet En Dejlig Rosa - Robyn

Jag vet en dejlig rosa och vit som liljeblad
När jag på henne tänker så görs mitt hjärta glad
Dess stämma ger en hjärtans tröst
Lik näktergalens blida röst
Så fager och så ljuv

Som solen fagert skiner är hon som purpur klar
Gud låt dig aldrig sörja men alltid vara glad
Må de få komma samman
Med hjärtans fröjd och gamman
Som längta till varann

Var dag går solen neder och dagelig uppgår
När kommer dagen blider att jag dig skåda får
I hågen är du jämt mig när
Farväl, farväl min hjärtans kär
Mångtusende godnatt

TRANSLATION

Know of a lovely pink and white as the lily leaf
When I think of her that made my heart happy
Her voice gives great solace
Like the gentle sound of the nightingale
So beautiful and so sweet

As the sun is shining beautifully, she has purple clear
God let you never sorrow, but always be happy
May they come together
With joyful hearts
As long for each other

Each day the sun goes down and it rises
When will the day come again that I can behold you
The mood are you still with me
Farewell, farewell my sweetheart
Many thousands of bedtime

Thomas Jovian

2010-11-16T12:27:00.002+08:00

Do you ever have that kind of feeling, where you suddenly lose your faith in everything? Even in love?

I think I'm going through a stage what I don't just lose faith in love, I'm losing faith in myself.

It's just so hard to put it down in words; there are too many secrets that I just can't say. And it's really draining me out emotionally.

Just thinking about it make me feel so hateful and angry at myself; why am I putting people around into so much anguish and sadness when from the beginning, I could have just not gotten myself committed.

He's telling me that everything's alright and that he understands, but I just can't accept it. I can't act like as though everything's normal and that life goes on. I mean... yes, life goes one, but... you know... I just don't know how to put it in words.

I can't accept myself at all, I have so much problems within myself, I don't where to start.

My mind's in such a flurry right now, I'm really lost.

I'm just losing faith in everything.

Thomas Jovian

2010-11-10T08:55:00.006+08:00

I seriously wonder what's all the hype about Darren Ng's death...

I mean, he was simply murdered by a group of people who were suspected to be linked to triads. Period, right?

I don't think so, according to the media.

From a simple supposedly "staring incident", that turned into a full fledged murder spree from these 4 alleged murderers, it's pretty hard to comprehend a few things:

1. Why would these alleged murderers be holding onto knives or parangs in public? Wouldn't anyone even be calling the police in the first place to alert them?

2. Would Darren have been in connection with them, or, in the past have unintentionally offended them in any way, like maybe accidentally bumping into them along the streets, while clubbing, etc.?

3. Would Darren have simply been a victim of misidentification for someone else ?

What was exactly happening? I don't think anyone of us will know, except for Darren himself.

Then just this morning, while I was doing my usual Yahoo! News update, there came RazorTV's interesting video of Darren's funeral.

I can't exactly blame the media for wanting to cover this story, nor blame Darren's family and friends for requesting the news reporters to stop filming for privacy.

But I just don't think his friends need to go to the extent of threatening or really giving the "STOP-FILMING-NOW-OR-I'LL-FUCKING-PUNCH-YOUR-FACE" face.

It really amuses me, and at the same time, just leaves me wondering; I just don't know how to put it in words here.

But really, I think this incident has just been seriously put way out of context since the beginning.

If anyone got murdered, will all funerals be broadcast on the news? If anyone got murdered, will all news be on the headlines?

I doubt so.

p.s. To anyone who is in any why related to Darren, please, take this as just an opinion from myself, and I am not in any way, prejudiced against his friends, family or the media. =)

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-23T10:47:00.002+08:00

Why are we always under the jurisdiction of doctors?

Why do we always have to wait for doctors?

Are we like a childcare centre for doctors to park their patients here and see them as and when they want and like?

Screw you all.

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-20T11:27:00.002+08:00

I've got so many secrets.

I don't know who I am anymore.

I feel like as though I'm a true Jack of all trades, but in essence a master of none.

Who am I?

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

I took a break.

And I broke his heart.

I broke mine too.

I can't forgive myself.

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-19T16:56:00.002+08:00

Who's up for overseas trips in the year 2011?

Let's see:

- Bali.

- Christchurch, New Zealand.

- Hong Kong.

- Phuket, Thailand.

Who's up for it?

JANE IS VERY NAUGHTY TODAY.

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

I realised that my Facebook does not have any photos of Persia.

I'm surprised all right.

Need to upload them tonight.

Damnit.

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-16T12:42:00.000+08:00

Isn't there a saying that says, "You can always sleep it all away"?

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-16T12:01:00.002+08:00

I'm just not cut out for a relationship.

I just am not.

Tiring. No, not tiring. Depressing.

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-15T11:24:00.003+08:00

"Eat. Pray. Love." is probably one of the few movies that almost nudged a a few drops of tears.

I read a review from a magazine, saying that it was another boring movie, and probably interesting and engaging for people who believed in optimism & the light at the end of the tunnel and all of that.

Personally, I guess after watching the movie, most Singaporeans would wish to be like Elizabeth Gilbert (played by Julia Roberts); ending a failed marriage, flying around the world (well, to 3 countries to be exact) in a bid to find herself and that balance.

A very ambitious dream I would say, in fact, CRAZY. But, if you can afford it, what's a year of unpaid leave and spending money & time to find yourself? For myself? I'll probably try to do a six-month ambition. That's probably nice enough for me; and to travel 3 countries? Probably just 2.

Following Liz travelling around these countries, she started discovering herself, overcoming her inner demons, finding that true self through food, prayer & love.

There was so much for me to realise throughout this movie; happiness is nothing when you don't let go and be yourself, find yourself. Life is nothing when you live a life without helping anyone. Love is nothing when you don't realise what love really is.

It probably sounds like crap anyway. Hahaha!!!

Though, just to quote, "Keep four feet to the ground, that way you will remain grounded to earth. Don't see the world with your head, see the world with your heart.".

Thomas Jovian

2010-10-08T14:17:00.003+08:00

I just took a look at Little Miss Stalker's blog, and really, her blog's just about as wordy as mine, but probably less indepth. =P

Narrative as well, but nothing compared to mine. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Now that I've found her blog, I'm going to SPAM her.

BIG TIME.

Oh, and Amelia, if you're reading this, I've found a protegé for my Flabélos trademark. =DD

Thomas Jovian

2010-09-30T02:43:00.000+08:00

Fuck you.

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

Little Miss Stalker asked me to update the blog.

Which I will gladly do so.

Updated.

:-P

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-18T10:25:00.000+08:00

I feel a very sudden emptiness.

A need. Want.

Detached.

I just can't comprehend.

Just full of doubt.

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-17T08:47:00.001+08:00

If you're slow, I can still forgive you.

BUT!!!

If you're slow, AND you don't know how to prioritise your work...

I CAN NEVER FORGIVE YOU.

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-11T11:36:00.002+08:00

My lanyard strap snapped.

Dammit.

Oh gosh, I have to SERIOUSLY stop watching Daria. She's causing some huge influence on me right now.

But I think... I like it.

I should do it more often. But I think I may scare off Little Miss Stalker.

And she'll stop reading my blog. Woohoo!

Yea, right.

Anyway, tomorrow's the day, and I'm having this amazing hallucination that there'll be no one cheering at my route. Like, come on, it's a pretty deserted area, you know. Who'll want to stand there in the middle of the scorching sun and cheer that torchbearer? Well, after reading an article this morning that the YOG athletes have already arrived at the YOG Village.

Maybe they'll come and support me?

Heh.

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-10T11:31:00.002+08:00

A colleague of mine is stalking me.

No. I was just joking. But well, I didn't even expect my blog to be read by anyone, and I mean ANYONE.

It's just a bunch of words anyway. Who'd be that free to read a pictureless entry?

I know I do. Though I'm a closeted camwhore.

Work today is kind of, how shall I put it, dramatic? Yes, it has been dramatic so far. I've got patients giving me attitude, patients heading back home to bring their feeding tube, patients freaking out, probably the list may go on. Until lunchtime.

With Thursday coming, and my mom having done a recce for my route, I'm freaking out. Yes. FREAKING. OUT.

She told me that my route is at least 3 times longer than almost all routes, or at least the routes that are right in front of my workplace and my home. Am I that privileged? Probably not. My route is technically at the outskirts of NTU and towards a construction site, I think. Well, it's nice; admiring nature, while holding onto the Olympic torch.

I'm done. Headache's coming back. Bloody hell.

Just 2 more days.

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

Been down with a headache these past few days.

Have exactly no idea why or what's happening.

But I do know one thing for sure; I can't feel like this on the day of my run. I MUST NOT FALL SICK OR FEEL SHITTY.

And I've just received a piece of pleasant news; my friend just got attached.

I'm so happy for him! I get really happy and glad when people around me are happy.

So warm, this feeling.

Now, I need to pull up my socks, and start making myself happy.

=)

Thomas Jovian

2010-08-07T12:18:00.001+08:00

I just lost like 2kg in 2 days.

I'm shocked.

But happy. =)

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-31T11:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Nurses Day!!!

It falls on 1st August, though it's not the official day. Singapore adopted 1st August as Nurses Day because of the first nurse that started off nursing in Singapore.

Let's have a little history lesson down the nursing memory lane...

Nurses Day was celebrated in 1965, and was then known as Nurses Week. It was only changed to Nurses Day in the 1980's. As I said earlier, it is a different day for other countries around the world; the actual International Nurses Day is celebrated on 12th May, Florence Nightingale's birthday. For those who don't know her, she's the very first nurse who paved the way to nursing today.

Singapore celebrates Nurses Day on 1st August because it marks the beginning of the development of nursing in Singapore.

And did you know, the very first group of nurses that started in Singapore were a group of nuns? Which explains why in the past, there was headgear to be worn by nurses. Due to the fact that there are males joining in the profession, the headgear was done away to include male nurses in the industry.

And this was how Nurses Day came about. =)

Damn, we've got our own day, better than the doctors. They should have their own day too.

=D

Once again, happy Nurses Day to all nurses in Singapore and a belated Nurses Day to the rest of the nurses around the world!!!

It's time for a celebration.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-28T10:47:00.002+08:00

It's the 28th of July, and I'm probably going to be dirt broke tonight.

That is, if I got my netbook tonight.

But I've been calculating, this is probably the only time I can do it. UNLESS, I stay at home all the way from today till the 25th of next month.

I've got a few more movies to watch; Inception (everyone's asking me to watch it), The Sorcerer's Apprentice, Precious, The Last Airbender and Salt. HOWHOWHOWHOW?!?!?!

=(

I'll probably watch it after he ends work, on Saturdays. It's time for him to give me a treat. Hehehehe...

Oh ya, and he just got Starcraft 2. Like yesterday, and was having so much fun playing Starcraft 2 till 5 this morning. Take note, he's working at 10am today. That's how much I feel like confiscating all his games and force him to sleep early.

I NEED MORE MONEY. I WANT TO EARN MORE MONEY.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-27T09:04:00.003+08:00

I've finally got all my Glee albums, all 4 of them!!! WOOHOO!!!

Now that I'm following Glee, my next show to follow will be Queer As Folk (America), which is probably as long as Days of Our Lives; 5 seasons worth, over 20 episodes each, and LITERALLY an hour per episode. I'm going to have to spend a well over 100 HOURS to finish my QAF.

Speaking of which, I think I'll want to search for Ally McBeal as well. As well as The Simpsons.

It's just so fun have shows to watch, especially now that the TV shows now are just plain boring. Channel 5 shows being pretty much boring and unoriginal, while I seldom watch shows on Channel 8. But I have to admit, the cooking themed shows on Channel 8 are really good. My mom's enjoying TV so much, that she's glued to the TV from 7pm to 9pm. Oh gosh. My mom's going to be a couch potato.

And tomorrow, will be the day I will get my hands on my very own netbook! Well, yes, it's just a netbook. But hey, with trying to save $700 to $800 a month out of my month's salary, it's a huge expenditure (well, if you exclude my once-every-six-weeks haircut, occasional shopping, my insurance premiums). I'm surprised I still have about $600 left to survive through the month.

That's probably not prudence yet. But I'm almost there. =)

With university 2 years later, and my plans to work overseas when I'm 30 (it's good to plan ahead okay...), I need to REALLY start saving as much as I can.

You see:

$700 a month for 12 months = $8400

$8400 x 2 years = $16800

With the school fees hitting a high of $23500 (currently. Who knows the fees may climb or drop), I've still got another $6700 left. DAMN. Though, I think it's not compulsory to pay everything right. So well, I think I'll be able to make it through without getting any bank loan. And come to think of it, hey, I'll be debt free!!!

That's nice.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-26T14:34:00.002+08:00

It's a Monday, and it's been hell at the clinic.

We've probably hit WELL OVER 1000 patients again, ever since the other clinic bunked in with us while their clinic was undergoing renovation. Not that I don't want them around, but the patients have seem to be increasing at an alarming rate.

Either asthma patients, road traffic accidents, the common cold/flu bug, or just plain retarded complaints. Trust me, stupid complaints, I've come across.

They're now all popping out like bubbles from a washing machine. Oh god...

Enough of complaining now; and time to look forward. Too many projects, both personal and work. I'm literally cramming anything I can into my puny schedule; but I just can't seem to maintain my enthusiasm for long. I just keep burning out, and I have no idea why. I've tried taking breaks in between, but it just turns out into SLACKTIME. It sucks.

I've got my home business to worry about (because I've not even started yet), a volunteer platform organisation I'm collaborating with my friend on (which is starting to take form, but still FAR FROM IT); and that's just my personal projects. Imagine the number of work project I want to work on. Take not, it's not need. it's WANT. I can't just sit around and be idle; I need to contribute. Otherwise I'll feel like a complete bore, sitting around.

I do feel bad at times, because I have to keep sacrificing things for this and for that, and everything that I'm doing is all because of my passion; my passion to make other people happy and give them love. But now, I'll probably need to take a short break, following my coming down with a really bad case of the cough, flu & fever. I need to recuperate. I just wish I can get out of here and relax somewhere, and let my mind be at peace.

Wouldn't that be nice? With a cool tan as well. =P

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-22T18:20:00.001+08:00

Let's hope that this entry will not get deleted by Blogger again. Especially with long entries...

Finally finished my childhood immunisation course; it should be fun, well, I don't want to complain... but it's WAY TOO DRY. I almost fell asleep halfway through the course just now. Very painful way to stay awake, especially it's just... words... Words... and WORDS.

Give me a novel and I'll be able to finish it up. Give me a textbook and I'll burn it up. I just can't do academic books. Unless they're of real interest to me.

Oh, and my *COUGHS & COUGHS*, yeah, hasn't really gone away yet. Though I'm definitely feeling much much better than last Friday. I could faint anytime during the tchoukball match. *SUPERGROANS*

Recently, the clinic came under attack from over one thousand patients (read: ONE THOUSAND) almost everyday over the past two weeks. I just have no idea where these sickly people popped out from. They LITERALLY came in throngs. My initial supposition was due to the weather. I mean, which country can you expect to see the blazing hot sun for 5 minutes, then a crazy thunderstorm the next? That's Singapore. Singapura. Singapur. Lion city. AIYAH, THAT PUNY LITTLE ISLAND LOR.

I decided to blame my flu bug on the crazy weather too. The flu bug this time is quite crazy too. My very first flu with fever in like more than 5 years. That's just how bad the flu bug is. If only I could check into the hospital and get treatment for my flu till I'm good. Wouldn't tht be lovely? Don't have to worry about food, lodging, toilet, showering or spreading your sickly love to anyone and everyone around you. Just worry about the bill.

And Nodame is back! With the sequel to the first part of the movie. I WANT TO WATCH! But he doesn't have his off day yet.

T. M. D.

I can't miss this sequel; Nodame's debut performance, the blossoming of her relationship with Chiaki. It sounds like a happy ending movie. Well, it is! NODAME (or Nobila as he calls it) I MUST WATCH.

Movie date, anyone?

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

Blogger literally lost my entire entry for today.

Fark.

No mood to rewrite the entire damn entry. Wait till I get my mood back first.

DAMNIT.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

Thankfully, I'm feeling much better; better than yesterday.

Thanks to the age old remedy; LOTS OF WATER. REALLY LOTS OF WATER.

Of course, I'm not saying you have to stick a tube down your throat and pump water in. Just drink lost of water in a day. And really, from me, it REALLY works wonders.

And of course, Singapore had lots to drink as well; the recent heavy rain & flooding incidents.

Really, the Singapore river is not going to be a tourist attraction anymore. The Great Singapore Flooding WILL be the next tourist attraction, hands down.

What if, Singapore's foundation is being weakened by the rainfall, and one day it turns into the next sinkhole like Mexico? But instead, it's the entire island?

SAYONARA SINGAPURA.

Tomorrow will be the very first tchoukball match that I'm taking part in. My debut, and it has to be dampened by the flu bug. Damn you flu.

Well, just wish me luck.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-15T21:04:00.007+08:00

Just came across an article on Yahoo! and I was really appalled & disgusted to know that even though an animal is a domesticated pet, it will still be subject to cruel beatings.

Here's the video to explain more:

Question: Is this cruel? Or is it out of disciplining the dog.

Personally, I feel that it's the wrongest method to discipline the dog. Because there's no way a dog will be able to understand our intentions the same way a child will react to discipline.

Anyway, I'll be ending early here. I'm down with the flu, and its progress to being full-blown has been tremendously fast. Just 2 days, and I'm reaching my near-maximal point of falling sick. Just without the fever.

Time for more water, and more medication. DAMNIT.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

Falling sick is something you don't really want to, especially when you're preparing for a competition in a few days.

That really sucks. Big time.

I was given the very rare pleasure of having my morning not having to work. No, not not because I'm on another off day or what. It was for me to do some studying; e-learning to be exact. I'll be attending an in-house training for childhood immunisation towards the end of July. And in fact, I'm sort of dreading it.

Another added workload to my current mountainpile. Sigh...

I really need to start living life like an adult, and not like a student or student wannabe anymore.

That sucks. As well.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. As told by William Shakespeare.

'Tis true, 'tis true.

It is VERY true that women will turn lethal, AND fired up when hey don't think straight, that is.

One thing I seriously can't stand about patients is their attitude towards the medical professional (or at least that's where I'm speaking from). They seem to think that they can do what they like or do what they want.

It's infuriating sometimes; you telling them one thing, and the next moment, them twisting the entire story and making it seem like your fault.

I've always had the urge to tell them this very simple statement: "We are all human beings too. Don't you feel that we deserve that bit of respect?".

Of course, they'll most probably say this in response: "I'm the patient here. It's your job to attend to me.".

Definitely, in any situation, there'll always be 2 ideological sides; the good and the bad, or either way.

Sometimes, I really wonder, just how nice do we have to be for our patients? How much is too much? How little is too little? Are the patients expecting too much from us? Are we not up to standard yet? How can we as individuals create a better experience for both the patient and the medical professional?

That's a tough nut to crack.

As for now, I'll retreat to Sailor Moon.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-11T19:05:00.001+08:00

Woke up today with a very unmotivated mind.

Don't know why, it just doesn't feel as bright and hopeful as it was supposed to be. :-(

I sort of had a temper tantrum the night before with him. I just had that very insecure feeling that he was doubting me; that he didn't trust me; that my existence in those gay social networking sites were truly nonexistent.

It definitely hurt me very much. Despite me telling him that I wasn't going back for no strings attached with other guys, except to read those overdue messages from the adminisrative people.

So the final straw was when he asked me again on Friday night while he was sending me home. I just snapped. Well, not literally, but, well, you know what I mean. Though he asked it casually and eventually apologised for it, I just couldn't bring myself to forgive him. There was just so much anger and hatred that I forgot myself. Quite literally.

I refused to listen to him and ignored him all the way home.

Gosh. How immature I was at that moment. The next day I was still feeling miffed at him. After a while of cooling down and doing some soul searching, I was wrong as well. :-(

I shouldn't have treated him that way. But my emotions got the better of me, and made him suffer as a result of it. Guilt, that was what I felt for the rest of the day.

And today's Sunday. I need to make it up to him. And apologise. And give him my trust. After all, we're in this together.

And I love him so.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-10T07:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder...

Am I such a difficult person to be with? Am I that unreasonable?

Am I such a person? I really question myself, what is the real me?

At times it just feels so draining, so maxed out, you feel like putting everything down and say STOP. I really wish I could do that. I guess what I'm doing now is just to simply hide my guilt, my insecurities, my fear, my self-doubt, my incapabilities.

Have I been truly happy? I don't know. How does being truly happy feel like? Is there a guide to knowing what's real happiness? Or real love? Does it feel like butterflies in your stomach each time you see him? Do you feel like he's the only person in existence and everyone else around you is gone?

Is that true love? Or just simply pure illusion? I guess no one's able to answer me on that.

I question myself whether I am made for a relationship. I yearn for a partner, yet, I desire for the freedom and easy life of singlehood. Contradictory? I don't know. Maybe many people feel that, but one thing's for sure: mine's not a happy ending. Or in fact, it will not be a happy ending.

Thomas Jovian

2010-07-09T12:54:00.001+08:00

It's been long.

Very.

Very.

Very.

VERY.

VERY.

Long, since I last returned to blog.

Feel so virginised.

Thomas Jovian

2010-05-28T13:06:00.003+08:00

On 25 May 2010, I got myself...

A BRAND NEW PHONE!!!

MY LONG AWAITED X10!!!

=D

My new best friend. =DD

Thomas Jovian

2010-03-27T09:57:00.001+08:00

Tchoukball is fun!!!

Join me!!!

=D

Thomas Jovian

2010-03-05T11:14:00.000+08:00

I got my first digital camera:

Canon IXUS 100 IS!!!

Yes ah!!! =D

Thomas Jovian

2010-02-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

Something like this actually still happens.

Thomas Jovian

2010-01-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Finally, did some spring cleaning for my blog. =D

Thomas Jovian

2009-12-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since I last came back here.

Been really busy since the last time I blogged. Like really busy.

Now that most programmes are going to be over, I'm really relieved that I can get to rest more and focus on my work and family and my personal life.

A lot has happened since I finished serving National Service; spent 2 months searching for a job, got to know someone in between (and I don't even remember when we first spoke to each other), my sister got a flat in Punggol (moving in 2013-2014). These are just a few highlights of what has been happening.

YVIP is also over, with now Afterglow to prepare for; then YVIP 2009 will officially be over. Which will also be my very last camp with YVIP. =(

I've decided to focus more on my work, which I've managed to secure sometime in late October. Though I've only been in the volunteer circle for less than 10 years, It just seems to have passed by so quickly; it's been 7 years since I last took the first step in joining YVIP in 2002.

Now that I've got a job, I'll have to stop committing so much with volunteering, but that doesn't mean that I'll leave the volunteering circle for good. That can never happen. The volunteering bug is too infectious; it keeps you addicted. =)

And sometime during my job hunt, I got to know him. In a most unexpected way. He came online and I said hi to him, and asked who he was as well (he was in my MSN but I just had no idea who he was). After he introduced himself, and I did mine, we started talking.

It was a pretty interesting conversation (I think he still has the conversation. I got mine deleted. Heh), and that was how we starting hitting off. We spoke really often online, and offline. And that was when we met up for the first time; a couple of weeks before his birthday.

And I shall stop talking about our journey here. It's enough to write 5 chapters in a biography.

And now, it's time for me to stop here and watch Hula Girls on Okto. =)

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-30T18:03:00.003+08:00

I donated blood today!!!

Woohoo!!! 4 donations!!! =D

And it took like just 5 or 6 minutes to fill up my blood bag.

Very good. =DD

Yes, I've got 2 puncture wounds. Heh.

One from my blood test on Wednesday, and the other one, today's puncture wound from the blood donation.

I love my right arm!!!

So full of battle scars. =P

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-28T13:31:00.001+08:00

I think I'm in love again.

For the second time.

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

If you're reading this...

You'll be having a surprise. =P

This time, I'll not tell you.

You shall wait and see.

Hiakhiakhiak...

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-17T01:12:00.002+08:00

I just saw the list of movies coming out for the next 2 months. And it's a power-packed list!!!

Just a few movies that I'm going to watch:

- The Blue Mansion
- Coraline
- Astro Boy
- 2012
- Amelia
- Fantastic Mr Fox
- Paranormal Activity
- A Christmas Carol
- Where The Wild Things Are
- Gokusen
- Planet 51
- Avatar
- Nutcracker: The Untold Story
- Tooth Fairy
- The Lovely Bones
- Book of Eli
- The Last Airbender

These are just a few of the movies that I've planned to watch. One movie that I'll be looking forward to is... Paranormal Activity!!!

And a certain someone doesn't dare to go watch, because he'll be too scared... I'll also be scared...

Nevermind, I'll convince him to go and watch with me... =P

But he wants to watch Planet 51, and so do I... Time for movies!!!

=D

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-13T15:43:00.003+08:00

I've officially screwed up my life!!!

=D

I've never felt so useless in my entire 22 years!

In the end, nursing is not my calling after all. =)

I'm destined to be a beggar. XD

Oh, and it's not a joke. =)

Thomas Jovian

2009-10-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

The Singapore society is really too shallow.

I don't care if I get charged in court for badmouthing anyone. The reason why they're doing it is because they're afraid of the truth.

I've already applied for nursing positions at SGH, TTSH, AH, NHG Polyclinics & NUH.

I've yet to hear a reply from NHG Polyclinics, and I've got my interview at NUH. The rest of the hospitals have rejected me. I have not a single clue why I was rejected.

People have asked me, why did I not get a job at any of the hospitals? Was there anything that might have let the hospital reject you? I believe so.

It's all because of my mood disorder.

So does that mean that if a person is mentally unsound BUT under control, depending on the severity, he/she will not be able to find a job and work in Singapore?

Where is the justice? What's all this talk about opportunity? Now the government is doing so much to help ex-convicts rehabilitate into society, and now people who are of unsound mind are being outcast?

I am so disappointed with what's happening. I really wonder how the company management thinks. They're either just so shallow, or just plain picky.

I'll probably stick to the latter.

If anyone reads this and is offended, tell me, and see how valid your reason is for why I should not say this.

Thomas Jovian

2009-08-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

When can I tell you that I still love you?

Is he fictitious? Or is he real?

Can you tell me if you've a partner?

Thomas Jovian

2009-08-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

I was just hanging out with my Godbrother, Douglas, and he told me that a patient in his ward passed away quite very suddenly this morning.

He promised the patient that he'll do oral toilet for him, and before he could perform it, the patient has already passed on. Quite suddenly.

Though, the patient was already on the Dangerously Ill List (DIL), which means that anything could happen to the patient anytime.

He cried so hard that his eyes were swollen and puffy, and he was still feeling so when I was with him earlier. He felt that he did not carry out the promise he did to the patient.

It just reminded me how fragile life is. You could be alright, but suddenly, you can just collapse and die. Just look at the news and you'll see how many healthy individuals; with no history of smoking or drinking, just collapse and die even with immediate medical aid.

A broken promise is when one promises him/her that you'll do it, but in the end, you forget or you don't have the capability to do it.

Many times in life, we all have to really expect the unexpected, knowing that anything may happen. An event may go on smoothly, until something unexpected happens and spoils the entire system. You may be completing a piece of work until suddenly, your computer dies on you. You may be walking down the street when out of nowhere, you stumble and unexpectedly twist your ankle, or worst still, tear a ligament. It may sound impossible, but it can, and probably did, happen.

I'm not being pessimistic here, but optimism shouldn't be the major stakeholder here. There must be a balance of pessimism and optimism, otherwise, why is there even a word pessimism?

Everything has to be balanced. There can never be a time where it'll only lean to one side. You could be lying to yourself, you could be in denial.

With light comes darkness, with hope comes hopelessness, with success comes failure, with love comes hate, with life comes death. Everything is a balance.

Nothing is ever perfect. Everyone loves to say that practice makes perfect, but if nothing is perfect and practice makes perfect, what is, perfect?

So many times, we cloud ourselves in the believe that nothing will go wrong, and suddenly something screws up. And then you hate yourself for letting that happen. But do you think that it could have been avoided? Probably so. But sometimes, there are some things that are just not within our control. If you hate yourself because of a screwup, doesn't that mean that everyone will be living in a world of self-hate?

It is a lesson to be learnt, and you'll know how to go about dealing with it, but it can never be perfect. Otherwise, what's life?

Thomas Jovian

2009-08-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

I just came across 2 of the dumbest couples ever. And mind you, they're younger than I am. Yes, DUMB!

I was at POSB with Douglas queuing up for the cash deposit-cum-bank book updating machine. The bank book updating machine was down so everyone else was queuing up for the latter. It was clearly stated on the screen that the machine is currently down and is not in service. In all 4 languages.

Then there was this couple, probably in their pubescent teenhood, walking up to the out-of-service updating machine. And there I was, standing there, watching them stand in front of the machine and try to force feed the bank book into the machine. And there I was telling Douglas:

"Can't they see the screen? Or are they just purely blind?"

They realised that the machine was out-of-service (THANK GOD!) and headed into the bank. The service staff told them that the other machine that we were queuing for could update the bank book as well.

And there I stood, just wondering, are we going to have a bright future with these teenagers, when they can barely read a simply message on a TV screen. And we are still calling them the IT savvy generation.

MY ASS!!!

Thomas Jovian

2009-07-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

Argh.

Thomas Jovian

2009-07-24T22:54:00.003+08:00

We lost our title. Came in 2nd place.

But I had fun. =)

I realised how much it mattered to me.

I loved to play badminton. And I will always love badminton.

Tired now. And I call it Post Match Blues.

Thomas Jovian

2009-07-04T01:01:00.001+08:00

A dear friend just passed away this afternoon.

My former classmate in secondary school.

He stays in the same neighbourhood as me.

He passed away today.

Thomas Jovian

2009-06-27T18:32:00.002+08:00

I guess this year's birthday was probably better than the past few years. Of course my 21st birthday was great as well.

This year's was really nice as well. Initially I didn't want to go drinking because I just wanted a quiet birthday celebration with my family. But in the end, I still decided to ask Ziv out for a couple of drinks. He was going to meet Germaine, Xin Ling & Co. after that for Play.

And he knew that I didn't like clubbing. Or so he thought.

I reluctantly followed him to meet them for a few pre-clubbing drinks. And I finally met Xin Ling & Germaine after like more than 6 years? Gosh, I probably became too fat for them to recognise me. Hah!

We had a nice catch up, chatting with each other, and got to know a few other people as well; like Geraldine, Sebastian, and the other girl whom I really didn't catch her name.

They pulled me to join them at Play! Because Ziv told them it was my birthday on the 26th, about an hour past midnight. Itchy mouthed Ziv. =P

When I went in, I was like: "Phwoah...". It was my very first time at Play, mind you. And they asked me, "It's your first time here?". "Yes...", very sheepishly.

Gosh, a gay boy like me, who hasn't visited Play at all since they first opened? Embarrassing. But because I'm not a huge fan of clubs. I do pubs more than clubs.

And after a few drinks in between, I was on the edge of tipsiness, and on the verge of being wasted. Alcohol intake level has definitely dropped.

I don't know if I should say it here... But there was a bit of intimacy between me and him. But I guess it's not really intimacy, most likely just a case of "being there for him" because the other person's not there?

NO KISSING, FONDLING, or any of that sort. Just holding hands here and there, and, yeah...

A very weird feeling. He's my secondary school senior. And yet he said this, "Don't you love me?", in a very joking way. But yet, I could sense a certain undertone behind that question, like he's trying to hide something. Just something that tells me that question of his is more than a question itself.

Then again, call me sensitive. But hey, I'm an extremely emotional person, and very sensitive as well. Except when it comes to circumstances that allows me to be insensitive and bitchily honest.

I guess I shan't talk about what happened after we left Play. Quite a bit of drama, with probably a couple of us feeling very tipsy, or only me and him, I think.

I don't know how much longer it will last. But it's a very, I don't know how to describe or explain it, like... Love?

What is love, anyway? How is love like?

Thomas Jovian

2009-06-14T23:05:00.004+08:00

How do you feel when you're being ostracised once again? And especially so when that person is a homophobe (when hearsay is that homophobia is not part of him).

Probably never felt that way before. You're not gay, obviously.

I don't fucking care what you tell other people. Just don't categorise or give other people the bad impression you presume I'm giving off. You have an issue with me, tell me.

Don't be so immature. Grow up.

Thomas Jovian

2009-05-17T19:00:00.000+08:00

Why do I love to feel shitty all the time?

Damn it.

Thomas Jovian

2009-05-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

Tired.

But had a blast.

Being gay is certainly not a regret.

Thomas Jovian

2009-05-04T22:22:00.001+08:00

WHO is considering raising the alert level to 6.

Doesn't really make much of a difference now, does it?

Thomas Jovian

2009-05-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

My current confidante?

Mentos.

Kills my sperm count. But hey, it doesn't get back at you.

Many people probably see me as someone who's capable in many, many aspects. I'm a volunteer, a nurse, a lover, a friend, a family member.

It's what I choose to show them. My frailties I hide from them.

Sounds like a load of hob-gosh. It maybe is...

Sometimes I wonder, how do people see me as a person?

Am I really what, who they see me as?

I have too much to hide. Too much to lie.

No one to truly show.

Who can set me free?

Thomas Jovian

2009-04-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

7 more months and 8 more days before my blog's 4th year anniversary!!!

Thomas Jovian

2009-04-19T23:11:00.004+08:00

Another month is going by.

I seriously don't have much to talk about. Except for the sudden influx of tasks at hand for YVIP & SVC.

I've never been given such a huge role or appointment before. And I don't know whether I'm given this appointment because of what I chose initially. It's probably a convenience? I don't know. But I know for sure, I want to surpass my limitations.

I don't just want to be a person who can contribute and help out lots. I want to be a person who can create an impact in the lives of many people, just like some friends whom I know. I want to be remembered as a person who made change, not help change.

It has suddenly come to a point in a phase of my new adulthood life, that I'll be starting life in the corporate world very soon, and that I need to stop contributing so much to the army that I've not time to prepare myself for the working world. I need to re-organise myself, my goals, my mission, my vision. And I need to search for my purpose once again.

I miss the days when making someone smile, or making someone's day was rampant every day. I miss the times when I was busy preparing documents, medicine, remembering appointments, notes, changes, writing down information, particulars.

I just miss it all.

It has been many years since I last worked for a salary, and to be honest, it feels empty. When you're broke and hungry, there's just instant noodles or bread at home. Though now there's "free" food in the army, it's not exactly free. It comes at a price. A very heavy price.

As the saying goes, "There's no such thing as a free meal."

I just met up with a friend who left the army a few months ago to discuss on partnership and publicising each other's organisation. It suddenly struck me, made me wonder, just how much have I been doing to be recognised?

They're younger than me, but yet they've already founded their own organisation, and they even have their own name cards.

I'm just a normal human being whose limitations are there.

But I don't want to be normal. I want to be abnormal.

I want to break barriers, limitations. I want to know I can do it.

Thomas Jovian

2009-04-11T01:27:00.002+08:00

Since that day,

things have pretty much changed.

For better,

or for worse,

I really don't know.

I just want this to work out.

I don't know what to do,

what I can do to salvage it.

Is it falling apart?

Once again,

incompetency takes charge.

Thomas Jovian

2009-03-30T00:27:00.001+08:00

Adam Lambert is HOT!!!

I'm in love with him...

Oh gosh. Baby, please don't be jealous if you see this.

He's really hot. You have to admit.

But I still love you baby. =P

Thomas Jovian

2009-03-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

Being gay in Singapore is definitely tough.

Thomas Jovian

2009-03-09T01:24:00.005+08:00

What Else Is There?

Royksopp (Vocals: Karin Dreijer Andersson)

It was me on that road

But you couldn`t see me

Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road

Still you couldn`t see me

And then flashlights and explosions

Roads are getting nearer

We cover distance but not together

I am the storm and I am the wonder

And the flashlights, nigthmares

And sudden explosions

I don't know what more to ask for

I was given just one wish

It's about you and the sun

A morning run

The story of my maker

What I have and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear

And cut and I spear

What else is there?

Roads are getting nearer

We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder

Will I have flashlights, nightmares, sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and

You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for

I was given just one wish

2009-03-06T22:40:00.007+08:00

A freak accident happened this morning.

And it probably was a really interesting freak accident.

A tempered glass exploded in my hands. In my hands!

Now I have a new nickname in camp:

The Weapon Of Mass Destruction.

You can't really see much from these photos, but those were some of the wounds that are plaguing me right now from the shattered glass.

Thomas JOvian